Strange Magic
- Surfrrosa
- Dec 4, 2023
- 4 min read
Updated: Dec 10, 2023
Last night I was lying in bed and briefly fantasized 'God' dramatically reaching through the ceiling, scooping me up, and popping me like an orange tictac.
Many years ago, I listened to an amazing talk on dreams by Barbara Sher. In her books, she introduces the concept of "scanners." People who want to do a bit of everything, to put it rather simplistically. It's something that I've resonated with over the years. Fortunately, it's not something I've struggled with very much on a professional level. I guess it applies to me more so as a hobbyist. I will dedicate an immense amount of time to a subject or interest, but when I get to a point of finding the concepts repetitive, I move on to another area. I've always really admired those who come into this world and know exactly what they want to do and dedicate their lives to; I think that's incredible. I probably admire it so much, because for me, it's in the shadows.
Lately, I've noticed there is more here than I originally gave much thought to. I approach things in seasons. I always circle back to my interests and build upon them- so, maybe it's more of an upward spiral. I find it incredibly valuable to be a 'scanner' as it's given me quite a bit of knowledge in many different areas of life. I can find something to relate to with anyone, but even more importantly, I think it serves me well in being able to see the bigger picture to everything. I enjoy connecting ideas and concepts in ways they wouldn't ordinarily or obviously be associated. It's taught me to recognise patterns throughout life. I don't know if there's anything more satisfying than identifying patterns. It's like with any kind of learning, I guess, the moment the lights come on or you solve a riddle or puzzle. It's exciting. The more I learn in this life, the more it appears that it's all just macrocosms and microcosms. Fractals.
When I sat down to write this evening, I didn't have anything particular in mind. I've been focusing quite a bit on projects I've been working on and learning more Spanish. Since September of this year, I've had a strong intuition of needing to put my head down and focus. So, I have. With that, I've been thinking about things that I want to keep in my life and things I don't. This blog has ended up being something that I do want to pursue and put consistent effort into. I'd actually like to connect my other creative endeavors to this space to make it a more cohesive and holistic representation. I wanted to write a book, and I've given that a lot of thought over the past few years- how I would approach it.
There is a book that has really inspired me over the years, it's called The Art of Looking Sideways by Alan Fletcher. I thought- if I was a book, this is the book I would be. So, all this thinking has really inspired me to start connecting the various areas of my life because my life is quite the fandango, and I don't plan on giving any part of it up. I'm finding ways to showcase how it all works together and how I claim all parts of me. Maybe I can use this space to do some dream weaving.
Through my conversations with my self and the universe, I hear, "you've been doing the hard work, now it's time to start the great work." And I don't really have a clue what that means, but hopefully I'm going to try and do something I'm really proud of. However, I don't even think that's personal to me. I think it's meant more on a collective level. Either way or both, I've come to terms with the act of allowance. I've been practicing mindful allowance for the past couple years. What that means is I wake up each day, and I ask myself something like, "What will I allow myself today?" I mean, that's really what we're all doing here if we're ready to take responsibility for it. I guess that's what started this question for me was the realisation that the only person who has inhibited me through my life has really only been myself. So, I reversed it to thoughtfully ask what will I allow myself. Who will I allow myself to be, what will I allow myself to have, and so on. Will I allow myself to be seen or loved or even just be? I think it's a really exciting question because I don't always know the answer, but it's currently enough for me to be conscious enough to even just ask. The answer is the journey that keeps me going. I am living the art of trying.
But anyway, right now I'm trying to make some garlic parmesean fries in the air fryer, and they're almost done. Until next time, semper ad astra bb.
Oh my god. wouldn't it be hilarious if this was a food blog, and the ingredients and recipe were at the end of all this.
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